Saturday, July 17, 2010

Connect

I want you to connect with my writing
I want you to see your life reflected in it
I want you to see your deepest feelings on the page
To see your fears and dreams
I want you to connect with me through my writing
I want you to feel like you know me
I want you to feel like we had a deep conversation
To feel like we exchanged secrets
I want you to connect with others through my writing
I want you to get closer to your friends
I want you to learn new things about them
To feel like you are closer than ever
I want you to connect with my writing

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Sunday, July 11, 2010

How Frida Kahlo Changed My Life

This is Frida Kahlo. I'm sure most of you know who she is but in case you don't I'll tell you. Frida was a Mexican artist who lived from 1907-1954. I had seen some of her paintings but I never knew who she was until I took a class on Latin American history.

I should probably give you a little more background about me. You already know that school made me lose my love of writing. Some other things happened that caused me to lose my love of all things creative. I became completely focused on business. I wanted to own my own law firm and that was what my life was about. I didn't read, didn't write anything but essays, didn't do crafts, just school. I was still at this point while I was in this class.

So anyways, when we started studying Frida I was very inspired by her. She lived her life the way she wanted to and didn't let society dictate it for her. Being the kind of woman that I am, I related to that. I started looking over her work and I basically looked at it the same way I looked at all art. I could appreciate the talent but it was just pretty pictures. Then I came across this painting.
This painting is called The Broken Column and she painted it in 1944. When I saw it I just stopped. For the first time ever, a painting actually spoke to me. I thought of the things that had come into my life and had restricted and hindered me but were out of my control. I felt such a connection to this piece and something inside me stirred. I didn't know it at the time but my creative self had decided that it didn't want to lay dormant anymore. A couple of months later I felt an intense urge to start journalling. I wasn't consistent but when I did journal I felt emotions that I had suppressed for years start bubbling over. I had to explore this side of myself.

Eventually I decided to start this blog. Journals just weren't enough. I needed a place to keep pictures, quotes, and everything else. Notebooks don't quite give you the same freedom that a blog does. Well that's not true for everyone, but it is for me. Having this blog is pushing me to continue exploring my creative self. Slowly, very slowly, my all business self and all creative self are merging. One day I'll be part business and part creative, and I'll be following whatever path that leads to which is who I think I was meant to be to begin with.

Thursday, July 1, 2010

My Next Year Of Life

It was my birthday last week. I turned 24 years old. I think in my next year of life, it's time to start getting it together. So I'm going to make a list of the things I want to work on this year.

1. Go back to school
        I won't be able to finish in a year but I want to be on my way to finally graduating.

2. Move out
       Thanks to my going in and out of school trying to finish I haven't been able to afford rent and the payments on my school loans. A 24 year old should not be living at home! If I can finish paying off the oldest ones then I should be able to afford a cheap apartment, maybe.

3. Get in shape
       I know how important it is to eat healthy and exercise. This being out of shape and not exercising is ridiculous. I used to be a pretty good athlete for goodness sake.

4. Meet new people
       I had a lot of people in my life who were not good for me. Now that they are no longer around, its time to meet new people who will be good for me.

Well that's my list. I will be working towards these and hopefully I can keep up the momentum and not get discouraged.