Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Quote: Anais Nin

And then the day came, when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.

-Anais Nin

It seems that this is the point in my life that I'm at now.

Saturday, January 7, 2012

Anna Phoebe

She's so talented and inspiring. Her music is beautiful. She makes me want to learn the violin even more.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Quote: Ayn Rand

“Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swaps of the not-quite, the not-yet, and the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists.. it is real.. it is possible.. it’s yours.”

-Ayn Rand

Sunday, January 1, 2012

New Year Jitters

So, the new year is almost here but I feel no excitement. All I feel is apprehension. Looking back on the past couple of years I see that my position in life hasn't changed much despite how drastically I have changed. I fear that this next year will yield just as little improvement. I feel like my life is passing me by and I can't catch up because I don't even know what my life is supposed to be.

I know what I want but I don't have any confidence to go after it. My creative self is still so fragile, I'm afraid that the slightest rejection could break it. Perhaps I'm being overprotective of it, but I am very afraid of losing it again.

That's the problem though isn't it. I can never move forward as long as I'm afraid. I guess that's the next hurdle I have to get over. I have to either stop being afraid or figure out how to face my fears.