The Sunday Creative

This week is the first week I am participating in The Sunday Creative. There will be a one word prompt and I will write whatever comes to mind. From here on out, I'll just put the prompt in the title and I'll label it "The Sunday Creative".

This week's prompt- Open. So here goes.
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With him all my walls completely fall. My guards are down.
He is in my heart, in my mind.
I can tell him everything. He rejoices in the good and comforts me in the bad.
He's sees me at my worst.
I can cry, I can scream, I can throw things.
He lets me and holds me when I'm done.
He sees me at my best.
He sees my joy when I take a great picture or fall in love with something I wrote.
We share our dreams and our fears.
He sees into me, past all my defenses, into my very core.
With him, I am completely open.


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Quote: Graham Greene

"Writing is a form of therapy; sometimes I wonder how all those, who do not write, compose, or paint can manage to escape the madness, the melancholia, the panic fear, which is inherent in a human condition."

-Graham Greene


I really believe this. The more I write the more my walls fall down. I feel better, less depressed. I believe that I am capable of more than I used to. My eyes are opening to the possibilities. For the longest time I was just ready to give up. Now that I am writing again, I am slowly coming out of that. I'm still teetering on the edge but I used to be hanging off of it. I wonder how I managed to survive all those years without my writing.

Creative Slump

I have been in a creative slump for the past few weeks. It started with a piece of acrostic poetry I'm working on. I chose the word "searching" but I got stuck on the letters C and G. I just can't figure out how to make it work. So I got frustrated which sent my creative self into a downward spiral. I have to give the acrostic poetry a break. I can't start a new one until I finish this one. It will haunt me if I do.

I think I finally figured out why I get into these slumps so easily. I love writing and I want it to be this thing that flows out of me but that is not always the case. Also I want my writing to be grownup. I feel like it often comes across quite young.

Logically I understand that I haven't written since I was a child. When something isn't nurtured, it doesn't grow. So my writing skills are really still at the same level they were when I was young, except with a bigger vocabulary. That doesn't make me feel better though. I feel like I'm not progressing.

So it's time to do something more. I'm not in a place where I can participate in the Creativity Boot Camp that I mentioned in my last post. If I push myself while I'm in a creative slump the slump will only last longer. So I'm on the hunt for inspiration. I think that's the best thing to do during a slump. That and work on other areas of your life. There's lots of photography blogs out there. I can't seem to find creative writing blogs that I enjoy. Maybe that's a good thing. Don't want to start comparing my work to others. That would lead to more slumps. I would like to find blogs dedicated to other types of art as well. So the search is on.

Oh one more thing. The woman who created the Creativity Boot Camp has a blog. Every Sunday she plans on posting a creative prompt. Her blog focuses on photography but I'm sure I can make the prompts work for writing. Plus I can use the same prompts when I'm ready to develop my photography. I put a badge in the side bar that links to her blog so you can check it out yourself.

10 Things I Want To Do This Summer

1. Spend time in the sun
2. Find a place I can go when I need peace
3. Participate in the Creativity Boot Camp
4. Take more pictures
5. Explore my city
6. Meet more writers and other artists
7. Find online creative groups to join
8. Go to a wine tasting
9. Read some books
10. Write more

One of the many things I'm working on.

Reprogramming Update

I am thoroughly enjoying focusing on acrostic poetry. I find it very challenging. At first I thought it would be a fairly simple way to start my writing reprogramming. Now I'm finding it to be more than that. It is certainly not simple and each poem I write makes me want to write more. It also makes me want to read more and get more involved in other types of art. I can't draw, paint, or sculpt but I would like more of it in my life. I want to meet and learn from artists and writers. I've also developed an interest in photography. I only own a basic digital camera which doesn't give me all the options that I would like but I am working with it. Once I come up with a watermark to label my photos I plan on posting them here.

I'm not sure how to go about doing all this. My normal life doesn't involve my creative side. Which of course is another thing I need to change. I guess I'll just have to do some searching to find some writers meet ups or something like that.

Quote: Shannon Hale

“Right now I’d like all my troubles to stand in front of me in a straight line, and one by one I’d give each a black eye. ”


-Shannon Hale

Abandoned

Alone to fend for myself
Buried under feelings of betrayal
A fear of rejection begins to form
No longer will I trust anyone
Doomed to forever shut out the world
Only to remain isolated
Never to allow another to get close
Ever protective of my heart
Destined to walk alone


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Quote: Og Mandino

"I will love the light for it shows me the way, yet I will endure the darkness for it shows me the stars."

-Og Mandino

Quote: Norman Vincent Peale

“Change your thoughts and change your world.”

-Norman Vincent Peale

Exactly what I'm trying to do. I think it takes more than changing your thoughts though. You have to change your point of view, your way of thinking. You can't really change your thoughts until you change yourself.