Monday, February 28, 2011

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Too Far Gone

Too far gone
My soul has been in a coma
For far too long
I don't know
If I can ever come back
To who I was before
Before all the pain
Before the betrayals
I fear the damage is done
I fear I'll never look up at the sky
And see possibilities and dreams
I fear all I'll ever see
Is blackness and confusion

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Sunday, February 13, 2011

More Morning Pages

So far my Morning Pages experiment has been a colossal failure. I fell off the wagon because life got in the way. I have been unable to get back on though. I can't get past how heavy I would feel afterwards.

I understand why I felt heavy. Its because I was stirring up old unresolved feelings that I have been surpressing for a long time. Part of me knows that I should keep it up. Stirring up those feelings is the only way to resolve them and move on. I just don't know if I'm prepared for it. There's a reason I surpressed those feelings in the first place.

I do plan on starting up again, I just don't know when. Soon. There's no sense in losing any possible progress I was making. I just need to get myself ready for it. That heavy feeling is hard to carry around.