Sunday, January 11, 2015

Guiding Word Of The Year Update

I'm super overwhelmed by my guiding word of the year. When I think about all the parts of my life that need more discipline, I get so frustrated. The list is long and I don't know what to focus on or how to go about this.

I came across the idea of a vision board quite some time ago and toyed with the idea of making one but never did. I thought it would be a good idea to make one now. So, I made this.
Making the vision board helped me to narrow the focus to four main areas that are most important to me. Those areas are Relationships, Fitness, Studying, and Journaling.

Relationships: I've mentioned before that I don't really have any real relationships anymore. After all the abusive boyfriends, guys who just want sex and "friends" who turned out to not value me, I decided that it was better to be alone. I think it is time to get back out there and begin meeting people again and developing relationships. I'm a much different person now and am less likely to attract and hold on to the same kind of people that I used to. It is going to require discipline for me to take the time to search for places to go and things to do as well as to get out of my comfort zone to actually do them.

Fitness: I absolutely hate how weak and stiff I've gotten. I used to take so much pride is what my body could do as a gymnast and a sprinter. I want to get back to the place where I am proud of my body and what it is capable of. My exercises of choice would be yoga and running. Neither of which will be easy. Yoga is really scarce in this area, and yoga that is just for exercise without the spiritual component may be nonexistent. Running will also pose a difficulty as there are few places to do it that are safe. I also suffer from shin splints due to flat feet so strengthening my feet and lower legs will be necessary before even starting. I also may need to come up with other forms of exercise that appeal to me since I may need a Plan B.

Studying: Studying journal/biblio/poetry therapy has kind of gone out the window lately. I also need to study accounting in order to improve my current job situation. To top it off, I had grand plans for completing The Artist's Way and diving even deeper into ModPo than last time. I didn't accomplish either. I'm going to set The Artist's Way aside and start slowly. ModPo is available all year so the first thing is go back and finish it. I'll figure out the next step when I get there.

Journaling: Last and probably most important, I have to get back to journaling more regularly. Whether it is blogging, writing in an actual journal or writing poetry again, I have to get back to regular journaling. I don't have set goals yet but I'm working on it. I also know that there are a few online journaling classes and I would like to take one. Not only will taking classes give me a way to focus, it will also help me see how they work so I can create my own someday.

So, I don't have an actionable plan for these things yet, but I am getting closer. There are a few other things that I am working on as well that didn't make the board but they are lifestyle changes for better health both physically and emotionally. These ideas are less formed but will be more solid soon.

Saturday, January 3, 2015

Guiding Word Of The Year For 2015

Last year my guiding word of the year was growth. It has been a tough one for me and didn't go as well as I had hoped. Like I mentioned in my last post, the part of the journey I'm on has been exhausting and I really just shut down. I stopped exercising, I hardly journaled, I haven't done much studying. So, that lead me to what needed to be my guiding word for this year.

My guiding word of the year is:

Shutting down has been a problem for me for years. There was a time when it was the only way I could think of to survive. Now, it is just a bad habit that holds me back. Breaking that habit is important for my healing.

I do not have a plan yet. I need to journal more, study journal therapy and accounting, get back in shape, get organized and get back on track on my embrace my femininity journey. That is a whole lot. I'm working on coming up with an actionable plan with specific doable goals. I'm starting with a vision board that I will keep in my planner. That's as far as I've gotten. It's an ongoing process though isn't it.