It's March and so far, my attempts at discipline haven't gone so well. I can't make habits of some things and I can't even get started on others. I am not sure what is causing this resistance.
To make matters worse, I was laid off from my job. Now, I had grown to hate the job and wanted out but not like this. I have not psychologically recovered from being unemployed for 5 years and how it shattered my life. Being unemployed now is almost too scary to think about. But of course, I have to think about it. It's thrown me for a loop and I don't know what I should do next. If I went through everything that has been going on in my head, this would be the longest, most confusing, rambling post ever. That's saying something because quite often my posts are confusing and rambling.
So, I'm trying to regroup and get grounded. My head is spinning at the moment. I written before about how I always feel like, as soon as I get on my feet someone comes along and rips the rug from under me. This is one of those time and some days I feel like I spend most of my life on my back.