There hasn't been much to write about lately. I'm still trying to get settled. Its unbelievable how difficult they've made it to get all your paperwork taken care of, especially when you are in a situation like mine.
I had some issues with my last bank account so I closed it and didn't open a new one because I was unemployed and couldn't afford it. So, now that I've moved and sold my car, I have some money that needed to be put into an account. But of course, you have to prove residency to open an account. So I needed to get my change of address completed but in order to do that, I needed a debit card which of course I don't have. Need change of address to get a debit card and need debit card to get change of address. See the problem? Fortunately, since I was living with my parents they were able to do my change of address for me and since I am moving into my aunt and uncle's apartment they gave me a temporary rental agreement for further proof and was able to get a bank account.
Don't even get me started on getting my driver's license changed over. I need my Washington license, social security card, birth certificate, and 2 proofs of address. I didn't need that much when I was getting my license the first time! Utterly ridiculous! My mom says its their way of cracking down on illegal immigrants, which only makes the whole more irritating. I have a huge problem with the immigration laws. My aunt is from Mexico and when my uncle was trying to get her up here, she was referred to as some pretty disgusting names because the whole office was filled with racists. Granted, this was years ago, but it doesn't seem like much has changed. I think bigots are still the ones making these laws. Anyways, I digress. I finally have all those things I need so as soon as I can get a ride to the DMV I should be able to get my license and be good to go.
I don't have a job yet but I knew it would be difficult especially after my long stint of unemployment. I worked with the Career Resource Center here to improve my resume and get some job hunting help. My aunt is also this crazy good networker so she has been introducing me to some people. I have become accutely aware of my need to develop my own network, something that will be incredibly hard for me to do. Networking is not one of this very shy introvert's skills.
Something that has been frustrating for me is my lack of a comfort zone or "nest" as I find myself calling it. I have this picture in my head of birds building their nest and then feeling free to fly wherever because they can always come back to their nest. Well, since I am currently staying in a room decorated by my aunt that looks nothing like me, all of my stuff that I have collected over the years is still in Washington until I can afford to ship it, and even most of my clothes don't look like me since I've been going through a massive reclaiming of my identity, I am really feeling my lack of a nest. It has also affected my writing. I feel virtually no interest in journalling right now and am only do it because I know that I need it. Since writing is such a huge part of who I am, this lack of interest makes me feel like there's a huge hole in myself.
Ok, this post has gotten way too long but I do have one thing to add. I just started a poetry class on Coursera and I'm really excited about it. I've long wanted to study poetry but been unable to even start. I can't seem to understand any other poet but myself and the few other bloggers I read. I think that good artists study the work of others especially the greats, and that's what I want to be. Having people to work with who can help me learn how to read other forms of poetry will be so great for me. I'm only just starting to learn how to write outside of the school essay context, I'm sure learning to read outside of it too can be nothing but beneficial. Hopefully, I can keep up!