I pirouette in the dark
I see the stars through me
Tired mechanical heart
Beats until the song disappears
Somebody shine a light
A frozen battlefield in me
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me

 "Shatter Me" -Lindsey Stirling ft. Lzzy Hale

Quote: Omar Khayyam

“The Moving Finger writes; and, having writ, 
Moves on: nor all thy Piety nor Wit 
Shall lure it back to cancel half a Line, 
Nor all thy Tears wash out a Word of it.” 

-Omar Khayyam

My First Tanka

Caught in a wind gust
Maple seeds- twirling, swirling
A beautiful dance

Children's eyes widen in awe
God's gift of wonder to them

I've read a lot about Tanka poetry but never seemed to come up with a decent one. This one I like. My childhood love of "helicopters" was rekindled a little while ago when I looked out the third story window of where I work and saw a bunch of small ones dancing in the wind among the trees. I wish I had had my camera.

52 Lists Project- Week 6

Week 6 ~The Ways In Which You Can Love Others~

Random Acts of Kindness
Compliments
Words of Affirmation
Loyalty
Standing Up For Someone
Standing Up To Someone When They Are Wrong
Provide Comfort When Needed
Sending care packages to soldier or refugees
Penpaling with soldiers or imprisoned missionaries (I heard about an organization that helps get letters to people who have been imprisoned for their religious beliefs, I just have to find it again.)
Volunteering

This was supposed to be posted last week but for some reason I felt completely lethargic all week. I didn't have the energy to do anything. Plus, because of that lethargy, I wasn't in a very loving mental space.

Quote: Victoria Moran

“A simple life is not seeing how little we can get by with—that’s poverty—but how efficiently we can put first things first. . . . When you’re clear about your purpose and your priorities, you can painlessly discard whatever does not support these, whether it’s clutter in your cabinets or commitments on your calendar.” 

-Victoria Moran

Update On My Femininity Journey

You might remember from this post that I am trying to reclaim my femininity. I am pretty frustrated at this point. My main focus is strengthening my body and increasing my flexibility. Neither of which is going well. Now that I am working 9-5, I am finding it impossible to get everything I need to get done after work, which includes exercise. On days that I don't exercise I find myself still with things I want to get done when it is time to go to bed. On the days that I exercise, that problem is so much worse. I can't seem to figure out how to solve it. Other people do it. I wish someone would tell me how.

To make matters worse, my flexibility isn't getting any better either. My hips and my hamstrings are so tight and no amount of stretching is helping. My lower back and between my shoulders blades are problem areas too. I'm assuming that the problem is something beyond tight muscles but I don't know what or how to find out. I'm looking for a chiropractor that has a good reputation and is affordable. That is an unlikely combination though. Still, I know that making sure that everything is aligned properly is the best first step I can make. After that, a full body massage to loosen muscles and release toxins is probably the best second step.

Something that is going well is updating my wardrobe. Overhauling your wardrobe is always going to be difficult and take time, but it will happen if you keep at it. So far, I've found 2 A-line skirts (my favorite shape), 2 wrap dresses, a shirtdress, 2 cardigans, and a crop cardigan. It's definitely a good start.

I have to remind myself to be kind to myself during this time. I've only been on this journey for a few months. A few months isn't long enough to undo 20+ years.

52 Lists Project- Week 5

Week 5 ~What You Are Grateful For~

Writing
Creativity
To Be Out of a Bad Situation
To Have a Second Chance
Sunshine
The Stars
Purple Flowers
Family Willing To Help
A Job
Good Health

Another short list by some standards. It wasn't that long ago you could've asked me to make this list and it would've been blank. So, compared to where I came from, this list is huge. Also, I don't know what it is about purple flowers that has me so mesmerized but I am loving them.

Six Word Saturday

Spring is much more beautiful here

Spring has finally arrived! It is so nice to finally be out of the cold. Back during autumn, I talked about how it wasn't as pretty here as it was back home. However, spring is much prettier here. The blooming trees are amazing and the falling petals are beautiful.

Purple Flowers

Creeping over walls
Trees blooming purple flowers
Beautify highways

On my way to work there are these wall-like things (I forget what they are called) on the sides of some parts of the freeway. The trees behind these walls have the most beautiful purple flowers that hang like grapes. Those flowers hanging over the walls make what used to be either a tedious or treacherous drive into something that actually gives me peace. Peace is needed when driving in Atlanta because it seems like everyone has a death-wish. I thought of this while enjoying those flowers and simultaneously trying not to get hit.